Thursday, June 24, 2010

Story of Kailey

Kailey Nicole Smith

Born:
April 17,2009
8:00am
7 pounds 2 ounces
20 1/2 inches long

Delivery type:
C-Section

Mother:
Jackie Paschall
21 years old

Father:
Warren Smith
20 years old

How it all began:

I met Kailey's dad through a friend. After meeting him she asked if I liked him and I said I thought he was cute. Once we started talking, we hit it off pretty good. We had some good times together. He was staying with me, he was being a great father-figure to Karli, feeding her and giving her baths, playing with her and teaching her new things. Before we even found out I was pregnant we were engaged to be married. A few weeks later he told me I was eating like a fat cow and I said yeah I feel different. So I took a pregnancy test and BAM positive! After a little while I brought up the nerve to tell him he should get a job and help me out since we had a baby on the way. He decided selling weed was the way to go! I don't do drugs. I don't tolerate drugs around my kids. As much as I cared about him, I had to let him go. I called off the engagement and sent him on his way. He put himself in rehab to prove himself to me that he can be a good father. I never doubted that, I saw how he was with Karli, I knew he was going to be a good father..but in my mind once a pot head always a pot head. And with the group of friends he had I knew the temptation was always going to be there for him. I had a scheduled c-section this time with Kailey. She came right on time and gave me hell too. I was hurting for weeks before the doctor finally said "ok you can have her!" the contractions were PAINFUL. He was still in rehab but his mother and sister were there for her birth. They have all been there since day one. They came to see her almost everyday until I was ready to let her go stay a night or two. She is now 14 months old and they still get her almost every weekend and sometimes during the week too.. Anytime I need them, they are there. I am very thankful Kailey has a family that loves her and a daddy that loves her and is always there for her. She is lucky to have a father like him. Me and her dad are still friends, we have managed to maintain our friendship everything else left behind us. If I were ever given the oppruitunity to work things out with him, I wouldn't. I wouldn't be happy with him like that. I'm just glad we can all get along and be friends. Kailey is a beautiful babygirl. She is chunky like her dad and is already as big as her sister. She is my angel.

I love both of my babygirls with all of my heart, and having them have made me who I am today.

Story of Karli

Karli Ann Mangum

Born :
December 18, 2007
1:23pm
3 pounds 11 ounces
17 inches long

Delivery Type:
Emergency C-section

Mother:
Jackie Paschall
20 years old

Father:
Kelvin Mangum
33 years old

How it all began:

It was January 2007, I was working at a gas station while also going to college. I met Kelvin at the store, he would come in every evening when he got off of work, buy him a couple of beers and cigarettes and he'd tell me how pretty my eyes were. One day he asked me for my number, I gave it to him and deep down inside kind of hoped he wouldn't call but he did. We hit it off pretty good. He would come to the house, he was around me & my family, we went to the beach once and hung out a lot. April 2007, I realized something was different about me, I was sleeping entirely too much and felt sick at times, plus my appetite went crazy and I was hungry all the time. After a few weeks of worrying I went to the pregnancy center in Bay City and took a test. Positive. I was pregnant. I called Kelvin to share the news with him and everything changed. He wanted proof. So I showed him my paper from the center and he was a totally different person. Although he told me he'd be there for me he wasn't. I was 7 weeks pregnant when an unfamiliar number showed up on my phone. Her name, was Kera. Back in January when Kelvin had first started talking to me, she had given birth to his daughter Kailyn on the 17th. They had been living together for two years, were engaged to be married, and already had a family together. This broke my heart. There was no way I'd ever dream of giving up a child, so I told her I planned to have the baby but as for me and him we were done. I was 19 years old and pregnant I never dreamed of being a single mom, I wanted my child's father to be in her life. So everytime he called saying him and Kera broke up and he wanted to be with me, I went running back. This only caused problems between me and her. They fought, he beat her up, she put him in jail. December 2007, I was 8 months pregnant. I went to the doctor on the 18th for a regular doctor's visit. He had me on a heart monitor just keeping a close eye on the baby because she was smaller than normal. I knew nothing was wrong..until he came into the room, looked at the paper and walked out. He returned a few minutes later and asked me if I knew I was having contractions. I told him no, I felt something but it didn't hurt. He showed me on the paper how everytime I was having a contraction, Karli's heart would almost come to a complete stop. She was just as stressed out as I was, and the doctor had to get her out of me. I was rushed over to the hospital and as they prepared me for surgery, my doctor warned me that there was a possibility she wouldn't make it. 1:23pm, my daughter was born. 3 pounds 11 ounces, 17 inches long. A head full of hair, lungs stronger than mine, and a stomach that could hold more milk than any other baby in the nursery. She was strong, just like her mother. She came out ready to eat, breathing on her own, no machines needed. I was so grateful, so happy to have my small but healthy baby girl. The first time I held her, true love was felt. We both got to come home 2 days after her birth. She weighed 3 pounds 8 ounces when she left the hospital. Exactly one week before Christmas, she was my miracle baby. Several months later her dad got out of jail. From all of the letters he wrote me, I thought he'd be there for us. I thought he'd be a father to her. But, that wasn't the case. He pulled this he wanted a dna test crap. So I took him to court for child support, he got his dna test, got proof she was his and I wasn't lying to him. 2 years later, Karli has turned into a beautiful toddler. Even tho she looks a lot like her dad, she is still beautiful in my eyes. Her dad still doesn't come around. He will come see her, then again 6 months later. He expects her to know him, but his crazy girlfriend Kera won't let him come alone to my house. After everything he has put me though, I'm not stupid enough to get involved in that again. I have no love for him. He is nothing but a sperm donor to me, and when Karli is old enough, I will tell her why her father was never there. I will tell her everything he put me through. Everything he never did for her. All of the birthdays he missed, the first steps, first words, first tooth, first hair cut. He can't get any of that back. And honestly, I hope when she's walking across the stage at her high school graduation and accepts her diploma, she looks at me and says "Thank you mom for everything" and if her dad is even there "I did this without you" . I have no complaints of being a single mom, I can say I've enjoyed everything he has missed out on. How a man can chose a girlfriend over his own child is beyond me but Karli Ann Mangum is my heart and soul and I will always love her.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

That's just who I am

You know my name is Jackie, you know I am from a small town in Texas called Van Vleck. But who am I really? Behind the green eyes who is Jackie? I'm a single mother of two beautiful babygirls Karli (age:2) and Kailey (age:1). Everything I do is for them and nobody else. My goals right now in life are to take this OSHA 510 course online so I can go back to work in the plants as a safety woman. Safety is probably the worse possible field I could have picked to go into and I'll tell you why in a minute, but the money is good so I'm doing it for my girls. Why is Safety probably the worse choice? Because I'm am the biggest accident prone girl ever. If anything is going to happen to anyone, it's going to be me. You will always see bruises on me, mainly on my legs because even though these walls have been in the same place for 22 years, I still manage to run into them. Anything that doesn't move, I always hit. I push on doors that say pull, I get hit by parked cars, I have fallen up stairs as well as down. I've gotten confused at an escaltor, I've burnt myself taking chicken out of the oven. I believe almost anything (for example my brother recently got a new double-wide trailer and the parked the front half in the back yard when the concrete was in the front..I asked my brother why and he said they put it in the wrong place and had to move the concrete. Ten minutes later I yelled at him and said he was retarded, they couldn't move concrete..He just laughed and said "duh"). I've been on the phone and searched the whole house for my phone while I was talking on it. Some would say I'm a blonde with dark hair. But aside from being gullible and unaware of my surroundings...I'm really a sweet person. I always give and hate to take from anybody. When it comes to dates I'm not the dinner and a movie type of girl. I'd rather go the race track and watch the races, or go out to a muddy piece of land on 4 wheelers and get covered from head to toe in mud. I love to be at the beach, I used to surf before I had kids but I don't really get in the water anymore, it's too dangerous out there. I like to go fishing or even just relax in a boat. I like going to car and bike shows. I've been into motorcycles for awhile now. As for music, I listen to anything that fits my mood. My dad has gotten me into the casino scene. I'm more of a slot machine person, I always have a good time when I go, and when I win money it's even better. I read books more than I watch TV. When I want something I never give up and keep pushing until I get it. I'm a real shy and quiet person. I worry too much about saying the wrong thing and keep most of my thoughts to myself. I'll add more to this when I think of more to say about me, but until then... this is me and that's just who I am.